Family...an eternal one..

Even though this is a couple weeks late, I'm still posting it. My great uncle was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer about a month ago and his health rapidly declined over the past month. He passed away tonight but through it all, I have been thankful for the knowledge of eternal families and know that I will see him again. He was a great uncle who lived life to the fullest everyday and has made an impact/inspiration on everyone that has come into his life. Now, this is me, giving my thanks for my family. The Moss family.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the Moss Family lately. I don’t know if its because every year around this time I wish I were out in Idaho or visiting family enjoying the holidays together. I haven’t had a Thanksgiving or a Christmas with the Moss family since we moved out here to PA. I was recently watching a home video that’s back from 20 years ago, when I was about 7 months old and noticing how everybody changed and even thinking “its nice to go back 20 years and not knowing where everybody has ended up, how far apart (miles) we are, who married who.” I even hate to say this but, I miss it. I miss all the memories that we had growing up and coming out to Idaho to visit. But, as I look back on my many memories, I know that my life would not be the same without them in my life. Sure, we’ve all had our differences, own challenges or trials but in the end it comes down to the two people that started the Moss Family. Our grandparents, Lyle and Bonnie Moss. We all have them to thank for raising great children who are amazing parents, aunts, and uncles. As Thanksgiving approaches, I thank Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ for blessing me with such an amazing family that I love and miss very much. I also want to thank Heavenly Father and Jesus for blessing me with such a great Grandpa who I miss everyday and know that he is with me and there is no doubt in my mind that he was proud of me and proud of all his grandchildren. He didn’t care what mistakes we made or how different we all are, he loved us all the same. On February 13, 2009, I remember sitting in Grandma and Grandpas living room surrounded by family who were dealing with the fact that we were losing a very important person in the family. I remember one moment where all 4 kids along with Grandma were around his bed and with tears Tauna said “You and mom have been a great inspiration on all us kids” Even though, he didn’t open his eyes much after a few days, he heard what we were all saying to him and he knew it even before we said it. He even knew we were all there. Over the course of the past months, I’ve had frustrations and tear filled days knowing that I wasn’t able to be out there for the services but I’ve realized now, that I’m thankful I had those last days with Grandpa. You should be too. Growing up, I’ve seen my Moms extended family grow further apart, same with my Dads. I’m scared to what the future holds for the Moss Family because they are the best family out there. They’re there when you need a ‘pick me up’, being willing to keep in touch with you over Facebook, Giving words of encouragement and I could go on for hours. Before you know it, we will all be in different places around the nation and sooner or later, all we’ll be to each other is a memory. You guys should totally see my room—its literally plastered (well, not plastered) but hung with nothing but the Moss Family. Every time I look at a picture I remember what we were doing and where it was taken and I know that you guys will always be my family and nothing can change that. So, as I bring this sappy thing to a close, I just want to say Thank you. Thank you for being great cousins and for always being there. I realized last night as my mom and I were talking about Thanksgiving that this would be the last one that I’m home for before I go on my mission. Its crazy to think that a year from now I’ll be somewhere totally different or maybe sitting in the MTC waiting to go out in the field. Thank you for opening up my eyes to what family is and what it means. As we all go on with Thanksgiving and even life, lets all thank Heavenly Father for Forever Families. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what differences we have, what we’ve done or what we’ve said, we are and forever will be family. I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU VERY MUCH (maybe some more than others—JUST KIDDING…HAHA)

Change...

I've been thinking alot lately about my job. I've had a feeling that maybe i'm not supposed to be a dental assistant. I made a list of pros and cons and the cons had it. When it all comes down to it though I'm still young (not for long though) and I have my whole life ahead of me and I need to experience life more and really find out who and what i want to be. I want to go into a profession where I can help people who are less fortunate who need someone to be there. I've always had a heart for those types of people and I want to make a difference in peoples lives--I can't do it being a dental assistant. It wouldn't make sense now to go to school if I'm going to go on a mission next spring. I don't know what to do. I've talked to 3 people outside of my family who have helped me gain an understanding of what I should do (I have talked to my family) one piece of advice that I got was to do what makes me happy and that and that its my happiness that i need to worry about. So, for now I'm going to figure out what to do with everything. I want people to be proud of me for who I am and what I'm doing. If anyone has any suggestions or anything PLEASE comment. In the end though, I know, that its my own personal decision.

famdamly

A couple weeks ago, my Grandma Moss, Aunt Peggy, Uncle Gary, Aunt Tanya and cousin Ella came out here to visit. It was such an awesome time! Grandma and Peggy flew in on Tuesday and Gary and his family Wednesday night. I didn't see much of Gary and his family since I was working a majority of the time..what can i say? i'm dedicated ;)
For the weekend, we all decided to head to D.C. since Gary, Tanya, and Ella have never been there. So, Saturday, Gary, Tanya, Ella, Megan, Peggy, Me and my mom drove to Gettysburg did an auto tour of the battlefields and drove to D.C. Dad, Ashley, Gma, and Kellen came down later since Kellen had a game. That night once everyone was there we went to a BBQ place (Red Hot and Blue) which was amazing!! Then, we went to see the monuments at night..IT WAS SO AWESOME!!
Sunday we went to D.C.--we went to the American History museum, Peterson House (where lincoln died) AND the white house!! I'VE NEVER BEEN TO THE WHITE HOUSE AND IT WAS AMAZING!!! then, we all decided to go back to the hotel and relax..then my mom and the 4 of us went home. I'd write more but my wrists hurt more now since i've become a dental assistant...

Long Time, No Talk

So, alot has happened over the past month since I've last posted. Okay, not alot, but close. This past month I got to house sit for two weeks by myself and I was super excited about that--no parentals, I got to go to Virginia (which was awesome) and.....I MOVED OUT!!! WAHOO!!! I've been waiting to move out for the past two years and my wish finally came true!! I moved in to my grandparents...what a huge step *I say sarcastically*. Anyway, I've realized though that I have grown up and most importantly, changed. Lately though, I've become more grateful for my family both immediate and extended. I've also had another outlook on life. I've come to enjoy it more. One of my favorite quotes is "Its not what the world holds for you...its what you bring to it" and its true...I'm trying to think of ways where I can make a difference or in somebodys life. I don't know if I have or if I ever will though...oh yeah, and...I'm preparing to go on a mission right now so if all goes well.. i can have my papers in next spring!! WAHOO!!!

I wish I was in that car...

Last weekend I had the opportunity to go to Virginia to visit my cousin Jared and his family. I had such an awesome time and I didn't want it to end. So, I'm just going to post pictures of the vaca since I can't really seem to figure out what I want to say.

Life Couldn't get more EXCITING!!! :)

So these past couple weeks have been pretty stressful with work and everything but with exciting things popping up all the time I'm excited to have stuff to look forward too. Like a couple weeks ago (more like 3) I went to Lancaster to see my cousin play in a softball tournament, this past weekend I went to my friends baby shower on Saturday then on Sunday went to NYC with friends that I hardly hang out with anymore..it was fun just to catch up on silly stuff in our lives AND the best part of them all IS....for two weeks i get to housesit for family friends--I get the joint to myself :) and then in a week and 4 days I'm flying to Virginia to see my cousin and this time I'm by myself!! I'm super stoked!!

So, anyway about the NYC trip....Here it goes: My friends decided that they wanted to leave for the city around 4am so we would have the whole day in the city so we would start showering in shifts at 2am...I woke up by my friends alarm and looked at the time which was 2:15 am and thought that maybe I should start waking people up. So, then at 4am we started our roadtrip to NYC...when we got to NYC we got off at the WTC subway stop (we rode the subway into the city) and stopped by ground zero and then walked our merry way to the Statue of Liberty. We missed the tickets to walk up to the monument but thats okay. We just took pictures and walked around Liberty Island. We were going to go to Ellis Island but, it started downpouring so we decided to skip it and head to Times Square. Of course, it was still downpouring and me and my friend Amanda didn't have hoods or umbrellas and I was wearing white (thank goodness I had a tank underneath) we refused to by an umbrella and then when it really started going we decided to get one. Anyway, we went to Toys R us which is flippin awesome and another Toy Store. Although, we didn't really do that much but walk and look around we had a pretty good trip. I was thinking twice about going on this trip but I realized something...Lifes to short to pass up opporutnitys like this. Heres some pics

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Didn't want the day to end...

I was so excited for today!!! Last Monday, I heard that my cousin Jared would be in Lancaster (which is two hours away from me) for a tournament and since I didn't get to see him the last time and completely upset, I went for it!! I went with my friend Brittany. I was excited all week for Saturday to come--I could hardly work on Friday I was so excited. So, Brittany and I got up at 5:45 am to hit the road to be there by 9:00 am for the first game. After the game, we all drove around (jared, sarah, me, brittany and makenna) and enjoying ourselves. We then went back to the game and sat through two of them. I of course, am burnt like a tomato and I refused to put sunblock on. I look like a tomato and my legs hurt so bad I can't bend them. We all then went out to dinner and then the girls headed to the outlet mall!! After that, brittany and I took off.
I didn't want the day to end because I had been looking forward to it all week and it made me realize that I miss my famdamly very much--but I know they will always be there for me.

Changes/Excitement

I started my new job on Monday...and I was super uber nervous! I was really overwhelmed and stressed about the whole thing. I even forgot my waterbottle at home and couldn't get anything to drink all day! I came out dehydrated--ugh. So, at the end of the day, I got in the car and just started bawling and thinking "I hate my job" then I looked at my phone and saw that I had two new voicemails. I was listening to them and got a message that I really needed to hear and when I was in the middle of listening to it--my cousin called and it was just what I needed. Of course, I was acting like a blubbering idiot.
Its going to take time with everything. I'm going to be working on it.

Then, this weekend, my friend brittany and I are going to Lancaster to see my cousin play in a tournament. I haven't seen them since February so I'm pretty psyched. Pics. will come!!

GIRLS CAMP 2009!!!

This past week I had the opportunity to go to the stake Girls Camp. I had such a blast. Kris Eden was the stake camp director (REALLY good family friends of ours) and did an awesome job! The theme was "Light It Up" which was about how to be a light in peoples lives and how to be a good influence and that we all have lights within us. I think Camp was really what I needed this week. Honestly, I have never felt the spirit before and especially at camp. It was just an uplifting week. It wasn't until Wednesday night during the night hike that I had a comforting feeling come over me and had butterflys in my stomach because I knew I should go on a mission. I've regretted not doing things in my life and I know I would regret not going on one. Anyway, here are some pics. of camp....WAHOO!!!!




Abbie and I





My Mom and Aunt Jill








HAHA..Emilee and I




Emilee, Megan and I (best girls EVER)






I did a little slideshow of camp with a song that went with the theme. It wasn't the Camp song but its SO awesome and everytime I drove somewhere I listened to it...ITS AWESOME!!! I really enjoyed hanging out with everyone from my old ward and it was so nice to see that those friendships haven't changed one bit..yes, there were times where i was crazy but who isn't?? Lifes short so you gotta make the best of it. My goal for this week was to have fun and I achieved that goal. I do miss being in the YW program because it was such a great experience. I also am thankful for the "lights" in my life that have never left my side and who will continue to be there for me no matter what!!

PARTY!!! :)

Alright, so for the past 4 days I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off. On Thursday, I started my job at PSU and helped organize my friends surprise graduation party. So, Friday I go help decorate for this party at 7:00 pm and don't get done until 10:00 pm. Her mom needed some help with getting the rest of the food so I told her I would help. At 10:00 we left the grounds, dropped off our friend, went to Walmart, the gas station..by the time we got to the house (my friends moms) it was quarter til midnight!! While at the gas station I was super uber hungry so I got a $5.00 footlong and a liter of Dr. Pepper. We made 2 salads, a cake, deviled eggs..etc. by the time we were done it was 2 am and we decided not to go to sleep because we had to get up in 2 1/2 hours to head back over to the party site and get things ready..so we stayed up and watched Michael Jackson videos on MTV, and chatted. The craziest thing that I did that night was shower at 3 am!! When I came back downstairs I knew I should try and get some sleep so I fell asleep for 45 minutes. We then went to the grounds, set stuff up, went to graduation, and oh yeah, her mom got her a LIMO!!! I was so excited I was invited to come in the Limo and ride around it was flippin SWEET!!! Then, we showed up at the party and ate some grub..I was so flippin' tired I didn't even enjoy myself so I left early. But, I explained to Ciara that I was tired and didn't want to ruin her party so I was just going to go. Like I'm going to now...TTYL

News

Yesterday I get a call from a dentist office that I applied at last week and had an interview scheduled for today. I go in with a smile on my face and am nervous like there is no tomorrow. The one dentist came in, interviewed me, and at the end said "I'm going to go get the other dentist but I like you and I want to hire you" the other dentist came in and asked me questions and then told me "your nice I'd like to hire you" BOOM.....KAITLYN FINALLY HAS A JOB!! NOW MY PARENTS CAN GET OFF MY BACK!!!! WAHOO!!!!

New Do

I FINALLY got a new haircut and I love it!!! I look like a twenty year old instead of a 19 year old with a 13 year old haircut!!

Home Videos

So, I was just watching some home videos (I could sit and watch them FOREVER--okay, not forever but I like to look back on the memories..i know, i'm cheesy). I was just watching ones from when me and my sister were little and having idaho famdamly get togethers and couldn't believe how everyone has changed and how amazing they still are and how mucho I miss them! It got to the point where I had to turn it off because it had my gpa moss in them and it just brought emotion...I miss him :(
Today in church someone in the branch was talking on family and she said (she is far away from her family) that she was looking at pictures of when her and her cousins were small and was thinking back on the memories and she stated that through the years you change your looks, style, where you live etc. but you never change who you are. Its true. All these years that I have lived away from my Idaho family they never changed who they are and each time I see each one of them, the appreciation for them and the love grow stronger. Love you and Miss you!

HOT DOG WITH A BUNN..I'M DONE!!!!

Well, after 9 months of waiting (no, i'm not prego)--I FINALLY graduated. Originally, I was supposed to graduate on Thursday but when we all showed up with nothing to do but SMILE our teacher told us that she had our diplomas and everything for us and that we could stay and wait until Thursday or just get it now and have it be done--of course I said HECK YEAH I WANT IT NOW!!! lol. So, she handed out our diplomas, a gift bag of with a lab coat with our names embroidered on them and a dental book (wahoo--notice, when i write in capitals of wahoo..i'm excited notice the lower case as to where i wasn't as estatic) now i know that my whole life will be focused on teeth. wahoo. I'm sooooooooooooo glad to be done though!!! Thanks everyone for your support!!

Shirts

Okay, so I've been looking into getting new crazy shirts but need help to decide what to get...let me know!! I'm up for any suggestions: well, my computer is being stupid so i'll just tell you some of them: Idaho no Udaho! I'm famous in Idaho Falls and of course, this one is my fav:

I'm famous in Idaho Falls, Made in Idaho--I'm telling ya, the list could go on and on. I'm thinking about getting this utah shirt and then the Idaho no Udaho shirt...bahahaha...

WAHOO!!! HOT DOG IN A BUN I'M ALMOST DONE!!!!

SO, I CAN'T WAIT TO POST THIS POST....
1. I HEARD AWESOME NEWS TODAY AND I'M SUPER EXCITED
2. MY INTERNSHIP ENDS TOMORROW
3.I GRADUATE ON THURSDAY MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAHHH!!! no more school...anyway, just had to post that!!!!

20th Birthday!!! Woot! Woot!

Its been a hectic week and haven't gotten a chance to post pictures. I didn't take pictures on my birthday except of the cake that I got from people at my Internship. It was awesome..of course, people in the famdamly didn't think it was funny--but hey, you only turn 20 once and you can live life the way you want to live it. I realized though, that I am unique in my own way and you know what? If nobody likes the way you live it...TOUGH COOKIES!! Anyway, here is a pic. the cake... It was REALLY GOOD!!! :) (Next week when I have the famdamly party, I will post some pics)

Turning 20 *Warning: Long*

So, as you may or may not know, I’m turning 20 tomorrow! I’m so excited!!! I’ve heard from various people that when you turn 18 you’re a pre adult but not totally out of the teenage years yet. So, when 20 rolls around you’re considered an adult. SCARY!!! Throughout the past couple weeks, I’ve been thinking a lot about the past 6 years of my life experiencing the teenage years. The friends, teachers, and everyone that has come in and out of my life and wondering where I would be without them! I’d have to say the best 4 years out of my life came from High School. I remember being a freshman entering the doors of Bellefonte High School not knowing what would happen the next couple years of my life (i.e. changes, friendships, etc.) What I do know is that I would not be the person I am today because of what I learned about life.

I remember the summer of my 9th grade year and not signing up for Marching Band. I got a call from the band director at the High School (it was his first year) asking if I wanted to do it. I of course, said yes. A couple days later I got a calendar of events for the summer and looking at practice nights—they were the same nights my youth group got together. Luckily, the director and I worked out a deal. I would go to church every other week and go to band the other times (although, I rarely went my Jr. and Sr. year because it was fun and a lot more exciting). Every year, I threatened to drop out but I’m really glad I stayed and stuck through it. The friendships that I made in band, past or present are ones that I cherish today. Over the years, the band became like a family. A family that didn’t care what mistakes, idiotic things you did or how you would mess up a part of a song they still made you feel like you belonged. I’m glad I stuck through it for 4 years and I’m glad I had that experience. It will be something that I will always look back on.

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you." Looking back through the years, I have had many friends. No matter what your friends know about you, they still like you for who you are and not for anybody else. The person that you are today is the person that you’re supposed to be. Without my friends, past and/or present, I know I wouldn’t be the person who I am today. I do have to admit, I wish I still talked to most of them because you can never have too many friends. I want to thank all my friends that have come in and out of my life and thank you for the many memories, laughs, and tears. You all liked me for who I am and I appreciate that. So…THANK YOU!!! <3

“Other things may change us, but we start and end with family” With all the challenges that my family has gone through, the one thing stands out. We are family no matter what. I was brought to this family for a reason and to tell you the truth, I haven’t figured out why yet but I’m sure that day will come. This quote is true for the immediate and extended family. I’d like to say that even though all of us go through challenges, changes in our lives or trials, at the end of the day, we are still family and always will be. As life goes on, I have started gaining more of an appreciation for my family.

“A teacher affects eternity: he can never tell where his influence stops.” Looking back to High School (which was only two years ago) I often remember the teachers that have made an influence in my life. Mrs. Wertz, Mr. Trutt, Mr. Zimmerman, Ms. Nath, Mrs. Hoffman, Mrs. Bonchack, Mr. Schaub and Mrs. Krebs-all these teachers have taught me (not only about the subjects in school) but about life in some way shape or form. These teachers believed in me when I didn’t even believe in myself. I was fortunate to have teachers that cared about me and were willing to help in some way shape or form with going on in life. All of these teachers, I will and still remember fondly. I remember the advice they gave me when I was going through a hard time. No matter where I go in life though, these teachers will always be with me.

“Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we're never the same again...”So, this is sort of a spinoff from the teacher section but I don’t care. It’s going to be one of the longest ones. Throughout the past 20 years, I have had people come and go out of my life. I’m going to mention people that have made the footprints.

My parents- With their encouragement and annoying advice, I know that they care about me and are proud of the person that I’m today. Know matter what I do in life, I know they will always be there for me.

Grandma Moss- I know with all my activities throughout school, she supported me no matter what and gave me the encouragement to stick through them because I would later regret it and life is to short to have regrets. She has also asked me on numerous occasions if I have a boyfriend yet and that I need to start looking if I don’t. The time will come Grandma don’t worry.

Grandpa Moss- I always knew that my Grandpa was proud of me. I never doubted it. He loved his family very much and showed it through his actions and most importantly, love. One of the reasons, I decided to stick out school was because he believed in me and was so excited to see that I was in school again (probably hoping that someday I would move out of my parents house). MISS YOU GRANDPA!! <3

Tauna and Scott- These two people are amazing people. They have overcome many challenges and obstacles and they never look back on the past. They really are angels in my life-always there with advice and encouragement. Tauna has gone through challenges and obstacles in her life but in reality its made her a better person. LOVE YOU <3

Edens- There are too many of them to write out individually. This family has been amazing!! They have been there for me every step of the way. When you enter into their home, you feel like your home and their family is my family and I LOVE THEM!!!

Vida Vaughn- She always knows what to say whenever you are going through a tough time and its helped me out bunches! She has always been there and even though she’s crazy, I still love her.

My cousins (Jared and Sarah, Chris and Sarah, Jamee and Adam, Brandon and Lacie, Kristen and Russ, and Trent) - There are no words to describe how awesome these people are. It’s always fun to talk to them once and awhile to see how things are going. I miss them every single day and I love them all!! It’s also nice that I have my own special relationship with all of them!!

Deans- Ever since this family moved to Idaho, I don’t know what to do! They are hilarious! I miss them every single day and life sucks without them…by the way, they DO live in Rigby and need babysitters!! ;)

Smiths- This family cracks me up!! They have such cute kids. They have proven to everybody that a trial in life, brings a family closer and shows others how amazing they are! My life also sucks without them since they moved to Philly.

My friends (band, church and school-you know who you are)- Even though some of us never talk anymore, know that I have always considered you guys friends no matter what. I remember the memories, laughs and tears and I sometimes laugh out loud at them…haha.

Mrs. Wertz- My all time favorite Learning Support teacher at BAHS!! I always wondered why I had to get her my senior year of High School (her first year) but I later realized that it was a blessing getting her that year because she helped me get ready to graduate-even when I wasn’t ready. She helped me through a lot of tears and laughs. I often told her “I’m the daughter you never had to give birth to”

Mr. Trutt- My all time favorite teacher over all at BAHS!! He also helped me get ready to graduate. He taught me not to care what other people think and that life is too short to get mad at people. It’s true. I often look back to the good times that we had in his class too. We had inside jokes about the short bus and crack kills. Too many stories, too little time.

Overall, I know this is long and I apologize!! I applaud you for taking the time to read this cheesy thing. In closing though, I want to thank everybody that has stuck by me in my life throughout the past 20 years of my young but almost old life. I want to leave you with a few quotes that have helped me throughout the years:

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning how to dance in the rain."
“If you can’t be yourself, who can you be?”
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
“To succeed... you need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you.” –Tony Dorsett
“Mom says, I ride the short bus because I am special”
“Crack Kills”
“Tomorrow is always fresh with no mistakes in it”

Birfday!!! :)

10 days till my BIRFDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited. My aunt and uncle are moving on that day and we have to help but I told my parents that I will help them move on Saturday not my Birthday so I'll celebrate by myself!! WAHOO!

Internship/Newbies

So, my Internship is going pretty well. I really like it but have come to the realization that I'm prob. not going to get hired there-which is fine with me. If I don't land a job, then I hope that I can pick up hours at my job downtown state college.

Anyway, for those of you who are unaware--MY MAN LOST BIGGEST LOSER!! (Mike). I'm telling you, I am going to get married to that guy but I guess he sort of has to meet me first and fall madly in love with me and then I have to convert him to Mormondism or I could just leave the church completely--he is def. worth it!! haha jk. I can't believe how good he looked though at the finale. WHOA DAWG!! haha.

BIRFDAY MONTH!!! WAHOOO!!!

Alright, I'll start off by saying that my BIRTHDAY is at the end of this month and that I'm super uber stoked since I will be 20 and leaving the "teen years" whatever. I thought you left them when you turn 18 but I guessed wrongo. I decided that I'm going to celebrate my birthday every day this month...so far I have gotten a pedicure, gone to the movies with a friend who is about to go on her mission and watched my all time favorite show--BIGGEST LOSER!! :)

This past weekend, I became VERY proud of myself. I stood up for myself to my aunt that is very critical of me. I was wearing my "Crack Kills" tshirt where its a guy bending over with his crack hanging out and a guy laying on the floor dead because he saw the crack (don't worry I'll post pictures up when I'm done) so I wear this shirt to my grandmas house on Sunday just because its my lounge around shirt and I don't wear it out in public (besides working out) anyway, I get up to go throw something away and my aunt says "Kaitlyn, I just want you to know this but your shirt is very obnoxious" I replied "I don't care, its one of my favorite shirts." I walked away before she could say anything else but I did hear her say "well..." What I should've said (but didn't want to get my booty kicked) is"I don't care, its one of my favorite shirts and its not as obnoxious as you" BUT I was being kind and walked away from the situation. I feel like no matter what I do she has to critisize me ALL the time. I have been nice to her the past couple of months and all I get back from her is criticisim. I'm tired of it.

I don't care what other people think of my tshirts because thats me. If I like crazy tshirts then I'll wear them...If I like to wear shirts that say "Crack Kills" then by golly I will!!!

Misc./Awesome news!! :)

I start my internship at a Dental Office today! WOOT! WOOT! I'm not nervous just excited..Its helping because I already know the people in there because that is the dentist I go to. I'm just excited that I'm out of the classroom and away from the complainers about everything. Overall, I'm EXCITED! WAHOO!!! :)

So, for those of you that don't know...I'm a BIG Biggest Loser fan! I watch it every Tuesday night at 8:00-10:00 and schedule my life around it on Tuesdays. The other night my Home Teachers asked me if they could come over Tuesday night around 8 and I said that I was staying out at my grandparents house because my pap needs me! haha. anyway, you should see me when i watch this show..I usually sit down and eat a bowl full of ice cream, a bag of chips and soda and watch it. I really like Mike, Filipe and Kristen. I did like Ron but after last weeks episode--not anymore. Mike and Ron are the father son team and I'm telling you what--If mike asked me to marry him right now the answer would be heck yes! but then I decided that I didn't want Ron as a father in law so that plan backfired....

Over the past few years, I really haven't had a testimony of the church. I had it when I was a kid and up until I was a sophomore in High School. I haven't even picked up the scriptures my whole life and had personal scripture reading time. A couple years ago, I asked my cousin Brandon about the church and he gave me a GREAT scripture to look at and its one of my favorites. Its Moroni 10:4 it says:

"And when ye shall receive these things, I would exhort you that ye would ask God, the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ, if these things are not true; and if ye shall ask with a sincere heart, with real intent, having faith in Christ, he will manifest the truth of it unto you, by the power of the Holy Ghost"

I always look back on that scripture and do what it says. I often look back on that night when Brandon and I had an hour and a half discussion on the church. It helped. I tried harder in life. Then, of January last year, a good friend of mine went on a misson and I remember contemplating on going on one. Then, last May, something happened and I decided that I was going to blame Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ for it. So, I pulled the plan on going on a mission. A couple months ago, I had a 45 minute conversation with my cousin, Jared on the church. He challenged me, just like Brandon, to sit and read the scriptures. It was hard but I did it. When I did, I felt a rush of peace come over me. Since then, I have started to believe again. I gained a testimony of Joseph Smith, Jesus Christ and the scriptures.

Someone that has also helped me (whether she knows it or not) is my cousin Kristen. I sometimes read her blogs and what she has to say about the church and it helps me in everyway. I can tell she really loves the church and everything about it. So do the rest of my family. I haven't been to the temple since I was a Junior in high school...which is 3 YEARS!!! Whoa! I feel though with all my mistakes in life, I don't feel worthy enough to go in but one of these days...I will. I want to go with people that have helped me in every shape and form.

Since talking to my cousins about the church, reading the scriptures, and going to Institute I have felt that the church is true. I don't like to admit it, but its true. I have a testimony of Joseph Smith, and Jesus Christ. There are still kinks that I have to work on but I know I'll get them. I'm thankful for everyone that has helped me along the way. One of my favorite songs is "Angel" by Beverly Mitchell my favorite line(s) are :

"Have you felt the strength of an angel
When you needed it the most
Lifted by those gentle wings
You know you're not alone
Every now and then I feel the peace inside
Wherever life may take me, I'm guided by that light"

I'm really thankful for my cousins. They are really awesome. For the past 13 years that we have lived out here, I have missed out on all the things going on out in Idaho. I've missed out on parties, graduations, weddings, etc. I miss having my older cousins around and its hard not having older cousins out here in Pennsylvania, but by the examples that my cousins have set for me--I can be that example for my cousins out here in PA. I really love going out there because it helps me strengthen my relationships with my family members. Just remember..FAMILIES ARE FOREVER....DANG IT!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah, I'm getting married the second.....THE SECOND SOMEONE ASKS ME!!! AHAHAHA!!!

Grandpa Moss

Back in January, my dad came to us about the idea about going out to Idaho in April for Easter. Of course, we all said yes! Then a couple days later, he told me "I'm thinking about going out in February..its alot closer" Leading up to the weeks before Idaho, I knew something was wrong with my grandpa moss. I had overheard my parents night after night talking about the situation and such. So, a few days before the trip I had asked my mom what was going on out in Idaho. She told me. I said "oh" I didn't know what to say. I was completely speechless. At that time, I knew I had to prepare myself going out there preparing for the worse. When we got there, I was surprised to see what I didn't expect. I saw my Grandpa lying in a bed completely helpless. BUT we were blessed that he was alert the first couple days we were there. I remember walking into their house and seeing my siblings just break down. I remember telling myself to be strong and to smile. Because thats what he would've wanted. So, for two days I kept it all inside. Until one day, it was a Friday, we got word that he wasn't doing too good. As I sat there surrounded by family, I realized that I have been blessed with an amazing family. I remember sitting at my Aunt Taunas house thinking ahead to two days where I knew I had to say goodbye to my grandpa. She reminded me that this wasn't going to be the final goodbye just the last goodbye until we see him again. As I said goodbye, I remember telling him that I loved him and I would miss him. Although, he was sleeping while we left, he nodded his head while my dad told him we had to go back to Pennsylvania. As I held his hand, I reflected on the past 20 years of my life with my Grandpa. All were great memories that I still look back on today. Five days after we got home, it was a Sunday night. I was home with Kellen and about a half hour earlier got off the phone to my dad who was still in Idaho with Grandpa. When my mom, ashley, and megan got home from my grandparents..in walked my Pap. I had no idea what he was doing there. Then, my mom gathered us all in the living room (which i thought was just a meeting to discuss what was going on that week since she was heading out to Idaho). Then she told us that he had passed away about an hour ago. I remember just breaking down and not wanting to be around anybody except for my family. The next couple days were hard because I wanted to be out there for the services. No matter what I did I couldn't stop thinking about my family out there. To this day, I'm still frustrated about it. I think the main reason was that we never got closure. Yeah, we saw him while he was sick and that was the sickest we've ever seen him. But, it hurt knowing that the rest of my family got closure..finally seeing him at peace and saying their goodbyes. The closure I never got. The closure I need.

One scripture that I found most helpful during this time was found in Alma 40:11-12: "Now concerning the state of the soul between death and the resurrection-Behold, it has been made known unto me by an angel, that the spirits of all men, as soon as they are departed from this mortal body, yea, the spirits of all men, whether they be good or evil, are taken home to that God who gave them life"

"And then shall it come to pass, that the spirits of those who are righteous are received into a state of happiness, which is called paradise, a state of rest, a state of peace, where they shall rest from all their troubles and from all care, and sorrow."

I know that my Grandpa is up in heaven with his family right now having a big reunion and telling them about his kids, grandkids, and great grandkids. Your probably wondering "why bring this up now? two months after he died?" I'm bringing it up because his birthday was this past week and its been hard on me. I'm thankful for my family that has helped me in anyway possible. I know that my Grandpa is watching over me and is proud of me.He loved his family very much and was proud of all of them. Just like I do today. I love my family and I'm grateful for them each and everyday. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of them. I hope that we can continue keeping in touch throughout the years because they are the best family I've ever had!!!!

Lifes Good

So, this past weekend, my family and I went to D.C. for a couple days. We left on Friday and we were about an hour away from our hotel when we pulled over at a rest area and we had a flat tire! BUMMER!! At least I had my Ipod. We got the spare put on (let me rephrase that--my dad put it on) and when he got the spare on...it was flat...wahoo. So my madre called AAA and sent a dude out to pump air in it. We finally got a new tire and were on our way. Friday night we went to the D.C. visitor center to see my friend perform in a concert for her school..it was really good. Then, we headed downtown to look at the monuments...It was the first time that I ever saw the monuments at night all lit up and it was beautiful! Saturday we decided that we were going to go to the museums but when we got up..it was RAINING!!! So, stupid me forgot to pack a sweatshirt with a hood and all I had was a cotton jacket with a hood--did i forget to mention it was like 50 degrees out?? yepp! we went to the the American History Museum and waited in a line for 20 minutes. When we got in, it was packed!! I mean, lines every which way. I wanted to go see the Lincoln exhibit..but there was a line..I wanted to go see the First Ladies section..and you guessed it..A LINE!! so we decided to blow the joint and go to the Air and Space..I was in a bad mood once we reached this place so I decided to sit it out. It looked pretty cool from what I saw. So, after that museum we decided to head home..FINALLY!! it was a good trip we just wished it was nicer weather. So, then for Easter we went to my grandparents house. My uncle was there that I hadn't seen for 3 months and my 2nd cousin that I hadn't seen since Christmas. The food was good and visiting was fun too!

A couple weekends ago was Conference and my favorite talk was given by Jeffrey R. Holland. It was titled "None were with him" to basically sum it all up--Christ walked alone a majority of his life especially while in Gethsamane. Then, he said that we don't have to walk alone which is why we have been given teachers, mentors, family on both sides of the veil, etc. I'm grateful for those that have walked beside me all my life. I have been blessed with a great family and I love them!

<-- we broke two of these rules: we broke the no pets rule by bringing kellen in and the no smoking one..i broke that one :) jkjkjkjk

Life

Looking at my blog I could tell that it needed some updating!! This past month I have been going through some changes. Good Changes may I add. Back in February my grandpa passed away so that has been a change..adjusting to him not being around anymore. I have my moments where I'm okay but other days, I act like a blubbering idiot.
I have always had a hard time with the church. The fact of believing it. Recently, I have started reading my scriptures and parts of me actually believe it. Now, I'm in the point in my life where in one year I will be 21 and thinking about a mission. I have to start preparing now though. I have really thought about this past year and what an amazing experience it would be! I have been reading the scriptures to believe what its saying. I'm thinking of taking a day trip up to Palmyra, NY and to believe in the JS story like I used too....

Concert

<------- having fun with grapes! I was laughing and taking the pic. at the same time. I'm such a dork...

So, for many of you that don't know, I am a HUGE David Archuleta Fan! I have a poster in my room, I have one dresser that is for David stuff only (david dresser of fame!) and I have even made the effort to see him in concert! A couple Sundays ago, me and a friend from work traveled down to Allentown for this shindig. As we got to the concert place (crocodile rock--name for the club)..we weren't that hungry and by looking around the town we decided not to eat there since we weren't in the mood for food poisoning. So we take Zebra Cakes and Kashi Bars and decide that that would be enough to last us for the night....WRONG! I was so stinkin' hungry! (which we finished 15 min. after getting in line) There was a Subway nearby and we figured we would get something there and eat it in line...IT WAS CLOSED! I was mad..and if you know me-- when Fat Kid needs to eat Fat Kid needs to eat! So we stood in line for 2 hours waiting for them to open the doors and in the meantime I had to go to the Restroom and so did my friend. So, we decided that she would go and then I would go....she went and came back and told me to go ahead. I looked at her and looked around this town and noticed that there were guys looking at us giving creepy looks and backed out. So, finally the doors opened and off we go inside. It was a stand only concert and I would be lucky if I even got to see my man. ugh. Luckily, I brought my camera to take pics. of the concert! After screaming my guts out and enjoying this concert, I decide to stand in line to get memoribilia. I got a shirt, buttons, and a poster. Anyway, by the time the concert was over and starving to death, we decide we would drive awhile until we got out of this town and stop at WaWa (like a sheetz but better). We didn't get home until 2am and we both had to be in school at 8. ugh.

Me and Whit David

On the way down, I made a video (which I act like I'm high/drunk. I'm such a dork) and took pictures because I was so bored. I'll only upload some of them. hopefully it works...

I'VE BEEN TAAAAAAGED!! This actually seems like a lot of fun and I think it could make for some pretty funny pictures! The rules are:1. Go to your documents/picture.2. Go to your 6th file.3. Go to your 6th photo.4. Post and blog about it.5. Tag 6 people to do the same.

This picture was taken at my cousin Kristens wedding reception. Of course, I look at lot better now. I was trying to suck in my stomach on this picture because I had more rolls than a bakery and I hated that dress since it showed practically everything. Anyway, this is one of my favorite pictures not only because it has only the two best cousins in the whole world, its the fact that no matter how far away we live we still love eachother and enjoy each others company.

I tag: whoever reads this!

Final Goodbye

So...this past month, my dad bought our family tickets to go to Idaho in February!! We were totally excited to see family that we haven't seen in 2 years!! Whoa! We couldn't wait to see our cousins, aunts, uncles and grandparents! About 2 weeks before we flew out there my grandpa got sick. About a week before we came out, he came home from the hospital. He wasn't doing very well at all so we knew we had to prepare ourselves to say the final goodbye. The trip was fun...getting to spend time with everybody. The day that we left was probably the hardest and the day that I had been dreading the most. As we were leaving, we had been given the option if we wanted to say goodbye or not. I knew if I didn't I would regret it. So I said goodbye. That was really hard. Knowing that that was going to be the last time I saw my grandpa was really hard. I remember the good times that I had with him and alot of them make me laugh, cry and make me feel like a dork for how stupid I was back then. Overall, I have to say that this trip made me thankful for my family out in Idaho. Even though, we have our ups and downs, we still stick together!!

Bad Day!!!

So..i had a very bad today. It started with this morning before I left for school. I lost the keys to the car and was running late. I remembered seeing the keys on the counter but not knowing where I had put them or if I did anything with them. School starts at 8:30 and it was 8:25 (i live like 3 min. away from the school but I hate to be late to anything)...anyway, so I was like forget this and was getting ready to walk (walking distance is a mile and a half-two miles) when i found my keys....THEY WERE IN MY POCKET!!! I was ticked. haha. So I'm walking in the parking lot headed for the front entrance when I slip on black ice. I just sat there for a minute thinking "oh crap, is this what my day is going to be like?" so i got up and not even 5 seconds later I fall in the snow...by this point I had had it!!! ugh! So I finally got to class thinking "okay, maybe it won't be so bad in here" well, when we were doing our assigned jobs....I was getting in the closet to get more suctions and when I was walking back to one of the operatories I hear this noise come in from the closet and all the suctions had fallen on the floor so I had to pick them up, put them in sterilization....while i'm picking these up off the floor I had started crying...I don't know what was with me this morning...this past weekend i was emotional. anyway, i hope tomorrow i have a better day tomorrow!!

25

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. I played Flute from 4th grade until I was a Senior in High School
2. My nickname is High School was Mossy....and is sometimes still used today
3. I met Allen Iverson twice
4. I'm going to school to be a dental assistant
5. Believe it or not, I am shy
6. I sat through my first batman movie over xmas break (dark knight)
7. My nickname in the family is Eeyore because I always mope around and complain (i don't think i do)
8. My favorite color is blue
9. My favorite T.V. series on DVD is Dawsons Creek--I'm a Joey/Dawson fan!!!
10. My favorite singer is David Archuleta
11. My favorite T.V. shows are Biggest Loser, American Idol and Law and Order:SVU
12. My alltime favorite movie is Anne of Green Gables
13. My favorite places to vacation are Idaho and Williamsburg, Virginia
14. My favorite books are by Maria Shriver...i highly suggest them
15. I love going out to my grandparents house to spend the night
16. My favorite song is "Angel" by Beverly Mitchell (good song--i suggest that)
17. Believe it or not I'm shy
18. I don't think I can come up with 25 of these things
19. I still talk to some of my High School teachers(hey, is it wrong if they make an impact on your life and you still keep in touch)
20. I own the most craziest shirts
21. I don't have my own car but want one
22. When I was little, I drove my powerwheels corvette under my dads truck
23. I was in Colorguard my Senior year in H.S.
24. When I get comfortable around a group of people I tend to come out of my shell which is a big shocker because i am shy
25. Thank goodness this is over!!!

This Weekend

So, I decided that I was going to post a quick entry because my pictures are uploading and I'm bored out of my mind...Anyway, so this weekend was the best!!! Back in November, good friends of ours moved down to Philadelphia so we went down on Saturday to spend a night and to just hang out for a day. When we got there on Saturday we went out to eat at Chick Fil A--I have never been there and it is good stuff! After that we headed to the exton mall--that place is huge...a heck of a lot bigger than Nittany Mall. Then, we headed to Chuck-E-Cheese. It was a crapload of fun piled into one day!! Then Saturday night after the kiddos had gone to bed the rest of us stayed up and watched Rat Race. If you haven't seen it, it is the funniest movie ever--better than Napoleon Dynamite. On Sunday we skipped church and went shopping at the outlets...fun fun. I ended up getting a shirt at Rue 21..Save the Drama for Obama!!! haha. Anyway, It was a fun filled weekend although it didn't last enough we still had a good time and have many memories to last a lifetime!! Peace out!!

WOOT! WOOT!

At the beginning of the year for school we learned ALOT about Radiology and part of the course is going down to Harrisburg to get certified in the state of PA to take radiographs (xrays). It is a huge test and I was really stressed out about it. So, in October we all went down to take this exam....i was super nervous! I waited 10 days wondering if i failed or if i passed. Finally, the letter came and I couldn't believe it...I FAILED!!! I was devastated and embarrassed. Come to find out, I was the only adult who didn't pass. So, in January there was another test so I went and took it. Of Course, I studied that week. I knew my stuff it was the nervousness part. Anyway, after wondering for the past 10 days if i did good or not I finally got the letter in the mail...I ripped open the envelope and I PASSED!! The highest that you can score is 70% and thats what I got. One more point and I would've failed. I was so happy. Knowing that I accomplished something that was really hard and proving to myself that I could do it. I am so happy. I feel like my life is starting to get on track and starting to get exciting. I passed the exam, I'm going to Philadelphia this weekend to visit family friends and I'm going to Idaho in a couple weeks!!

Oh yeah, I AM NEVER moving to another state in my life because if I do then I have to retake this test and I don't want to do that ;)

Virginia/Family

A couple days after Christmas, we all went to Williamsburg, Virginia for some F-U-N!!! I really didn't even want to be there at first because it was my break and i didn't want to spend it doing family bonding time. Throughout the week I came to the realization that my life isn't really half that bad. I also realized that I have stopped complaining alot about my life because of the people that are in my life that are sick and have it worse off than I do. Anyway, back to the trip. I also gained an appreciation for my family and stopping to think of how lucky i am. I have alot of family that love me and I don't have to be someone totally different than I already am to impress them. But, thats family, they love you no matter who or what you are the only thing that matters most is that they love you.
This past week, my dad bought us tickets to go out to Idaho in Feb. I am super excited. I haven't seen my Idaho family for almost 2 years!! I was watching a Home Video from the last time we were out there which was when my cousin Kristen got hitched and we all had a big get together the night before..i started to get a little misty eyed because I realized how much I miss them! Everytime I come out there I feel like I'm never good enough and I always feel like i have to impress them. But, again, they love you no matter what! I'm anxious to see my Grandpa who has been battling cancer for a couple years and my aunt who is also sick. Anyway, I've realized that i have an awesome family and the memories always make me laugh and cry.

Still Figuring out

So, I'm still trying to figure this whole blog thing out but hopefully i will be able to keep up on it